Jasmin Moallem - Tel Aviv

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An apartment in Tel Aviv in the dark
Thinking of how to make ends meet this month
And what is the meaning of freedom
Recalling periods in which
I wasn't interested in keeping the change, the pockets were heavy
Today among thoughts of holiness, missing my parents
I have empty conversations with two hundred friends
But I need a close one now

Trying to bravely turn
To the deepest place in me
There are things that can break me
Like the gap between my imagination
And reality
It's coming slyly and I'm already in outer space
And it's good for me to be there with myself, not admitting that in my life
There was self-destruction but look what I built
And come look me in the eye and tell me it's not worth it

And there's no choice
But to go how I'm proud of myself
Because even if it's not perfect
It's all there is
Staying in motion
And I have no goal
Believing

I'm afraid it won't work out for me
It's flying demons in my heart
And dad calls my wise girl
Try to take it easy
And on Yom Kippur, a synagogue moves me like music
Going back to the city and shutting myself in, I'm guarding
My integrity
Deleting Tinder, what's the connection between that and essence
But then night comes and I'm lonely, so I download it again
And I feel empty and roll what's in the drawer
Because I'm afraid to look fear in the eye

There's no choice
But to go how I'm proud of myself
Because even if it's not perfect
It's all there is
Staying in motion
And I have no goal
Believing